2005-09-03 - 5:48 p.m.
I've been tense all week about a small application we had in court this Friday, as I had done all the background work on it. We had about a ten minute wait before the Registrar came into the court, and I sat there, tapping my fingers uncontrollably on my folder, feeling sick with tension, and wanting desperately for it to be over. I wasn't even presenting the material, but as it was all my own work I knew that if anything was wrong with it, it was definitely my fault. And I don't think I'll ever be so sure of my abilities that I'll be blase about turning up in court.
However, despite all my worries, it went perfectly, and we were complimented on our preparation. It's my first real 'win' since I started work - one milestone down. I suppose now I'll have to wait for the first real loss, and learn how to deal with that. It'd be nice if it never happens, but I'm not that blindly optimistic. Everyone makes mistakes.
Mr Details had his last day at work on Friday - he's moving onto a bigger firm - and after work a select group went out to dinner. The Partner we both work with is terribly sad about Mr Details leaving. He drank quite a lot with dinner to drown his sorrows, and proceeded to make several drunken toasts to me, the "greatest law clerk in the world". It was nice at first, but gradually became quite embarrassing, which was exacerbated by my blushes.
The Partner also told me that I had a wonderful palate, and has decided that it is his mission in life to teach me about wine. (Mind you, he declared this towards the end of the night - I'm not sure how committed he'll be to it on Monday morning.) And despite thinking all my life that I'd never enjoy wine, I did quite like the ones he had me try. Perhaps my tastebuds are finally maturing. And I must say, work dinners are immensely more enjoyable after half a glass of wine. I think I've discovered the lure of alcohol.
I got up a bit too early this morning, and as a result have been rather grumpy all day. I think it's terribly annoying that my emotions are so affected by my body. It makes me feel like my personality is almost out of my own control - being a little tired, and having my period, takes my decision to have a productive day right out of my hands and jumps up and down on it, laughing gleefully.
Bloody emotions.
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